I lost my way on the day the world turned upside down.
Neatly stacked and categorized, all was safe and sound.
Until the day my heart was broken, and all I thought I knew
Seemed not to matter anymore, and was it ever true?
This final thing betrayed myself and I crumbled in the dust
And if the truth was not, where was the truth I could trust?
So God doesn’t work the way I thought, so maybe I got it all wrong
I had done my best to follow His lead, to listen to His Song
Then the thing I thought would never be, drove a sword into my heart
It turned my world upside down and tore my mind apart.
The foundation from which choices came was no longer there
The choices came from a paradigm created from doubt and fear.
And since my heart deceived itself, it drew the darkness in
And since no true light could be found, all that remained was sin.
Instead of God, I led the way and thought that it was right
Deception locked me in a pit and took away my sight.
Because things did not turn out like I thought they should I fell
Into the depths of misery, into the depths of hell
But even through the darkness, a ray of light shone through
For God dwells in the darkness and His faithfulness is true.
He slowly led me to the light and made my vision clear
I saw that Jesus had not changed. It was me, I said, through tears
How much of it was anger? How much a spineless fit?
Or was it that my view of God had to crumble bit by bit?
In His likeness I was made. He was not made in mine.
He was not the God I thought I knew, not the God by my design
But the God of love came after me. I was not left alone.
Faithful and true, He had not changed. Forever I am His own.
Right was right and wrong was wrong. His Word was always true.
And behind all this His love reached down and again He made me new.
Life is still broken, but I have hope. Because He lives, I live.
I know He loves the ones I love. He is good and He’ll forgive.
Like a good Father, He will run to them and lift their face to His
He will clasp them in His warm embrace and give them a holy kiss.
This is my hope, this is my prayer, that my child will hear His call.
That she will heed the Sweetest Voice, give her life, her soul, her all.